God if you're reading this... - My Slumbering Heart
jan. 24e, 2012
06:41 am - God if you're reading this...
My life is in your hands. I'd like to think it always was but you give it to me and I don't know what to do with it. I try to quiet my mind but it works so little of the time. I am afraid of all decisions and all outcomes except a miracle. I need a miracle. I am here alone for good reason, not good enough reason but through my own faults, through that awful thing that makes me unlike others. There is no repentance I can give you. I have very little to sacrifice. I am humbled and alone and I will work to change, too late, until my dying day for only you can give the world such a miracle. I ask but I am undeserving, I know.